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Monday, July 25, 2022
Thursday, July 21, 2022
SOLVE for HOMELESSNESS where the most people possible thrive by (me!) ~topps
i am going to put aside suspicions that san jose city council members have political and/or financial agendas and motivations
and for the sake of real problem solving, give all members, the benefit of the doubt, and
work this through, with the understanding that they -really believe- caged tiny home sites are an actual solution to homelessness.
i want to point out, that my husband and i, have zero political aspirations, and nothing to gain financially from trying to problem solve in a more thorough way. our motivations are to protect our neighborhood, our schools, our sacred perc ponds -to help prevent caged tiny home sites from colonizing places/spaces which causes way more problems than it solves.
i must first refute the argument/suggestion that people who are against caged tiny homes sites, are also against the unhoused people they are placing inside said sites. Nothing could be further from the truth.
We need to look at resources/infrastructure and we need to look much closer at the cost of destroying for the all in a misguided effort to help the few.
-what we currently see, is caged tiny home sites [with very dense populations] next to homeless encampments; not replacing homeless encampments, but adding to:
i.e., monterey/bernal intersection in san jose. the densely populated, caged tiny home site is just across the street from a homeless encampment. -and in the same area, there is homeless living in their vehicle, and trash randomly along the road.
Saturday, July 16, 2022
Thursday, July 14, 2022
#selfportrait -poem from the archives, by (me!) ~topps
did i originally write this in 2008? -was just recently gifted the book, seabiscuit, "thank you deborah!", and that of course "CH!" [ding, ding] -so that inspired me to put the whole collection together, -take a pix, and repost my self portrait poem.***
but mostly fisher king
i am maya, pi & braddock
a giant redwood tree.
i am million dollar baby
but parry through and through
i am mother goose and gilbert
a me of many you's.
stella luna, owen meany
every child in silence screaming
i am every poet ever born
awake, but always dreaming.
i'm eleanor
i'm roosevelt
i'm jefferson on tuesday
rogers in a gypsy skirt
love everyone that moves me.
i'm seabiscuit
the shop girl
charlie rose
and sunday morning
i'm every artist ever born
creating without warning.
i'm every woman ever born
i'm blessed. i'm loved. i'm cursed.
but i am mostly fisher king;
here to quench your thirst.
Wednesday, July 13, 2022
No stranger to financial hardships, that's for sure -shares (me!) ~topps
oh, honey.. i know about financial hardships! i will just skip to a memory that captures my experience:
i am divorced, two children, and spousal support was terminated (2009 represents hardest time)
i am renting a room, working three jobs.. hourly wage does not even come close to taking care of living expenses
i have to save! -save for who knows how long to take both of my young children to the movies
so excited to offer this when a movie comes out at theaters that all the kids want to see (and all of their friends had already seen)
hiding my struggles from my children, not wanting them to experience my stress..
so i say to them.. "i want to take you two to the movies!" -all proud and excited..
and then they look at me, so happy.. "can i bring my friend too..."
and i could feel in that moment.. my entire insides collapse. i only had enough money to get just us 3 tickets, and had pre-purchased $1/each candy from courtyard marriott because the price of treats at the movies was out my reach
but i could not let them know
"well,
ummmm, ok.. let me think about this for a minute..
...., i wonder... do you think it would be okay, well, if i pick them up.. i can pick them up and drive them and bring them home...
but, they're going to have to buy their own ticket okay... " i had to make certain in advance that i would not end up at the box office window for tickets, and then tell the kids 'sorry, i cant get you in'
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my memories of not being able to provide.. not being able to keep up; my memories of working so, so hard just to rent a room, but share that room with boxes, because i could not afford both a room for rent and storage at the same time.
these memories are still fresh, and still make me cry..
-some make me laugh too..
like,
my thursday nights at barones, music under the stars.. the very thing that help me keep my sanity.. live music, outdoors, fresh air, i love to dance! i was surrounded by 100's of slightly intoxicated happy dancing people; a wonderful vibe.. gave me strength for the days and week ahead; refueled me.
i suppose people might not guess, -watching me smile, dance, enjoy pride n' joy live.. or entourage.. some of the best bands the bay area has to offer..
i suppose no one would have guessed or imagined,
but,
they have a cover charge. it has changed over the years, but, i think it was $10 at the time,
and i will not forget, how one day..
i went to the ATM machine..
and for those of you who have never had financial struggles, you would never think much about this,
but with ATM bank machines, the lowest amount you can take out
$20.
i did not even have $20
so i walked inside U.S. Bank, on main street in Pleasanton, and stood in line to see Cynthia
-she knew me.. my sister, our families, our ex-spouses, our bios..
and she knew our financial situation
but she didn't seem judgmental; she seem to understand
"well, guess what.. i can't even use my card.. i think i have $12 though.. and i need it for the barones cover... -wipe me out to zero! i want it all... "
-danced the night away.. (wow! im still so grateful to all the dance circle friends.. motown..)
and locked eyes with Cynthia a few times from across the dance floor. She was there too! We could exchange smiles and winks..
and for those of you who have never experienced anything like this..
many of us have.
that's why this song became as popular as it did (as it is). not only does it have an awesome dance beat
but it is a kind of anthem. "...knew my rent was gon' be late about a week ago, i worked my ass off, but i still can't pay it though... but i got just enough, to get up in this club, have me a good time, before my time is up hey! let's get it now.."
"Thank You!" for writing it. -still a favorite
And fast-forward several years..
It is on the dance floor at barones where I met Robert, my sexy.. and i was renting a room at the time.. and my hair was short, and all white/gray, i had let it go natural for several reasons, but one of them was financial
that's why i love this song too "they say that time takes a toll on a body, makes a young girl's brown hair turn gray, but, honey, i don't care, i ain't in love with your hair, and if it all fell out, i'd love you
anyway.." we have many conversations, my sexy and i, many conversations.. trying to figure out the how/when/what/why's of this cost of living/wage gap/inflation/homelessness
do you think.. when credit cards.. loans..
and everyone could live outside of their means..?
no one.. no one on either political side, of any faith.. no one can stand it when they know people who are capable of working, do not work, and accept handouts.
but, we have a large population not looking for handouts.. hard working people! willing to work people! multiple jobs people! -still can't keep food on the table, or gas in their cars..
everyone sees the extremes happening.. the way rich.. the way poor.. at first slowly.. but, like technology itself, it is happening faster and faster..
stepping over the sick and poor; to open the mansion door..
and, i remember learning, long ago.. about how unique the united states was for creating a middle class..
and, i just know we can do better! but when i consider these tiny homes..
and i just know! the problem is economic..
and i just know! that if we don't address the problem from an economic/fiscal standpoint..
then,
a decade from now.. the united states will not be unique at all. and it will go on record for destroying the middle class, and creating a tiny class
-how can the absolute most amount of people thrive.. without exceeding resource/infrastructure tipping points -under what 'ism'?
it is not 'capitalism, socialism, marxism, communism..
we need a brand new 'ism' for our times.
Calling out to Jesus.. the chain-breaker, the pain-taker, the way-maker! hallelujah & amen.
Monday, July 11, 2022
#NOTonNOBLE
The court has received your letter requesting an immediate injunction against the City of San Jose regarding a proposed tiny home site for homeless residents in your area. If you wish to file an injunction against the city as to this project, you may do so at the Civil Courthouse at 191 N First Street in San Jose. I cannot give you legal advice on the process of filing the injunction. You may wish to seek legal advice or you may review the court’s self-help page at https://www.scscourt.org/self_
Thank you,
Dave Walker
Dave Walker | Executive Secretary to Presiding Judge Theodore C. Zayner
Superior Court of California, County of Santa Clara
191 N. First Street | San Jose, California 95113
p: 408-882-2282 | e: dwalker@scscourt.org
ONLY COMMERCIAL FREE MUSIC SAVES LIVES laughs (me!) ~topps
we have been enjoying stranger things.. and i woke up this very morning giggling..
i really appreciate the value of music to save, enhance lives.. different music for different people; but it cannot be underestimated
in any case, so many of us are paying subscription fees for 'commercial free' music..
So, in my imagination.. in one of those crucial scenes, when only music..
write in the middle of the potential save... an ad. -with a 'skip ad in 3, 2, 1 seconds..."
"to uninterrupted music and stories and conversations!" hallelujah & amen
Sunday, July 10, 2022
HOMELESS CRISIS PROBLEM SOLVING NOTES & call to action from (me!) ~topps #NOTonNOBLE
of course, wish i would have acted sooner,but, looking closer at the problem(s),
HOMELESS
CRISIS
-RESEARCH/RESULTS/QUESTIONS/SUGGESTIONS
It is 2022. First tiny home community opened 2020. RESULTS?
Per san jose spotlight article feb 27/2020, katie lauer
6000 homeless (obviously this # is not fixed) (will have more opportunities to get off the streets)
Initial grand opening of 40 tiny homes (bridge housing) safe & stable place w/support services while tenants search for permanent housing -tenants pay $20 month, to help prepare them for when they achieve permanent housing.
[where
is this permanent housing they are finding? How much is the rent?...]
Homefirst CEO Andrea Urton
(previously homeless teen)
COST
2.2 million to build, (approx. 55,000 per home) /keeping in mind 40 homes/6000
homeless…
About 1 million
annually budgeted in san jose general fund to continue paying for the site.
RESOURCES
City’s general
fund + a one time housing authority award (amount not mentioned)
State’s Homeless
Emergency Assistance Program funds helped
(how much?)
Measure E which would levy a real transfer tax on
property sales of $2 million or more to boost affordable housing efforts (did this pass?)
Newsom/Provide
California Environmental Quality Act exemptions/fewer obstacles w/like,
Caltrans
QUALIFICATIONS for tenants
Qualifying
vulnerability index score, in a rapid rehousing program (details); have a job
or are job ready
A two-three
month stay is the goal, Urton said, residents will be granted extensions as
needed while they work toward permanent housing
[results? It is now 2022.. how
many transitioned out? To where? Employed how?
How is it enforced if after extensions, there is still no job/permanent
housing? -then what? -back on the streets?]
SPECS
80 square foot homes x 40,
120 square foot w/wheelchair (how
many of each?)
[how
many square feet is the entire community? How many people within that square
footage?
Population per zone ordinances…
reasons they exist….
QUOTES “if we
can get the obstacles out of the way, cities can move quickly to address the
crisis” Liccardo
“just need to get red tape and lawyers out of the way” “deeply accountable to our communities..(!?!)
to tackle the crisis
QUESTIONS/CONCERNS/SUGGESTIONS
Of the 6000,
what % currently qualify for tiny home
w/vulnerability index score (details), in rapid rehousing, job or job ready?
What % of the 6000 do not qualify? How are we getting them off the street? Where are they going?
What is the current protocol
(enforceable protocol?) for a drug addict living on the streets in a
neighborhood or business? Unable to
hold down a job.. a crime threat due
to need to finance drug habit? What are
we doing currently? How
successful/unsuccessful? -to jail? And then after sentence is served, released with no money, no place to go.. -set up to fail again?
What is the average hourly wage? Minimum wage?
What does one week worth of groceries (on average) cost for
1 person?
[imagine/draft.. one month of
just basic living expenses (average) rent, car pymnt, groceries, gas,
water/pge, phone..] in San Jose?
What % of jobs available in the City allow for…
And if districts are not equal to begin with, size/population/house
to business to school to land ratios;
Why would we try to
distribute homeless equally?
instead
of taking up more/space/resources/budget creating brand new 'affordable' [tiny]
homes throughout the city, might i suggest (again) we make the homes/apartments
that already exist more affordable. -stop pushing people out and then
scrambling for what to do with them next.
30% lost job..
if 68% cant afford rent...
60% 'not enough income' 47% No housing
available (? where/at what price point?) 42% not enough
money for moving costs
google:City of San José HOMELESS CENSUS &
SURVEY COMPREHENSIVE REPORT 2019
google: Homeless Services, City of San Jose
https://oir.sccgov.org/sites/g/files/exjcpb1026/files/sj-hmls-svcs-guide.pdf
The site is currently hosting 20 adults and 40 children, ranging from 1 to 18 years old. The Castanedas are the fifth family who have found stability—and permanent housing—
In September, Santa Clara County approved a multi-million contract with LifeMoves, the region’s largest temporary housing provider, to replicate an existing shelter site made out of shipping containers in Mountain View at 10 other locations across the county.
***
different san jose spotlight article [cost numbers bounce around.. from article to article]
Building more housing is the key to fighting the growing homelessness crisis in Santa Clara County. Two officials want to give a local nonprofit $25 million to do so.
Supervisors Joe Simitian and Otto Lee announced a proposal Thursday to grant LifeMoves, the region’s largest temporary housing provider, a multi-million dollar contract to help it replicate an existing shelter site in Mountain View at 10 other locations across the county.
San Jose, California in unique position to lead thinks (me!) ~topps #NOTonNOBLE
-that is; after we clear out the 8 city council members and anyone currently in a leadership position who voted yes, underhandly, to place 100 bed homeless/tiny home community across from an elementary/on a wildlife park..
it is not a personal attack on anyone, the attack is on the decision itself; not the person/people,
but, in order to really solve this problem, we need new leadership
***
and we need to more properly identify the problem(s); and look in a more detailed way at the ramifications of each proposed 'solution'
certainly we can look at san francisco and see what not to do..
we can clearly see how ignoring and/or enabling the problem results in exponential growth of the problem
so, behind the scenes, like many of our neighbors.. we are each bringing our unique life experience, gifts/talents, ideas, hopes/dreams and pragmatic problem solving skills to the table..
part of me, idealist.. can see san jose in a unique position to demonstrate for the united states how to really solve this homelessness crisis -from its true roots, which are economic/fiscal in nature, and not 'lack of housing'
what have i read.. 3 pages of services already available.. this does not even include the churches/volunteer organizations.. 6000+ people sleeping on the street on any given night -what percent healthy in financial hardship? -what percent addicted/mentally ill
-what percent prematurely released inmate? released inmate? what percent ready/willing to work?
what wage for cost of living? what enforcement do we have to remove/compassionately relocate encampments; car/RV homes in sensitive/residential/small business areas?
-and we believe, 'relocating' to open land near airport.. acres/acres of open land, so you can have a central location for portable toilets, garbage pickup, food drop off.. and we believe hospitals are in order!
and so many unanswered questions about tiny homes.. -there is a time limit, as there has been for shelters all along.. when the time limit is up, and there is still nowhere else to go? no job? etc. -then what.. you've only multiplied the problem.. enforcement?
and resources! -when you add 100+ people to only so many square feet in any given location -the new problems this creates seems worse than the original issue..
this has not been thought properly through... that is very evident. i know the humanitarian intelligence is out there...
***
-no weapon formed against us will prevail! God can use all things for good
i am just certain, in this moment.. that from all this ugliness good will come
-already, good has come.. neighbors who would have otherwise never met
-many of us being suddenly introduced to our 'worthy cause/activism' button
and, i'm really hopeful about the perc ponds receiving permanent protection -that would be a great result! that would have otherwise not happened..
we are learning as we go... superior court for injunction.. and reaching out learning about,
like, ... how do you get open space protected?
Nuances, Distinctions & Internal Knowledge by (me!) ~topps
-sometimes people are thinking out loud;
-sometimes people are talking out loud, even though no one else is around;
-sometimes people really are talking to themselves
-sometimes people are talking to imaginary others
still curious about that human mute/unmute mechanism inside each of us -and how we hear our thoughts.
****
now, sometimes people are creating an 'image' of themselves, or of an event, and they consciously edit out anything negative, unsightly, unflattering, etc. it is more tied to the ego, and needing/wanting to be seen only in a perceived positive light.
and sometimes, -from a Christian perspective, it is not about creating an image, but, you seek to glorify God's name and goodness, and avoid letting the enemy get any attention. In spiritual warfare, God is blessings you; and you become awake to those blessings, but the enemy wants to 'kill, steal, destroy'
a 'victory' is when the enemies efforts (to steal joy or peace..) are recognized and aborted, and the joy and peace (among other blessings) are experienced and celebrated. -always giving God the glory
****
love also considering and reconsidering what it means to 'believe'
the more interesting part is the internal knowledge mechanism which allows each individual to 'know' whether they believe something or not. -one of many examples being.. a younger couple dating and one says to the other 'i love you.' the person on the receiving end of those words, does not 'know' whether this is true or not..
and believes it's true, or wants to believe its true, but isn't sure.. etc. every time i read a little blurb here or there, and it repeats the message/sentiment, that people who create/code/program for A.I. begin to see humans as just advanced robots, i don't understand..
to me any/all A.I. work would result in even greater awe.. the masterpiece a human being is! joy, peace, hope, love.. kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, self-control.. strongholds/addictions and being set free.. truth! sets you free.. love, self-sacrifice, forgiveness..
mercy, grace, healing..
maturing, aging, concepts/appreciation of time..
****
i love all things golden state warriors, and i am about to go purchase a good old fashioned magazine, because trying to read articles online with animated ads every couple paragraphs is...
-so, the same way i will pay a monthly subscription fee to listen to commercial free music..
i would subscribe (were it reasonably priced) to add-free golden state warriors news/stories. does it exist?
***
This is the day the Lord has made.. Re-Joyce! -be creative and productive, blessed to be a blessing, enormously grateful -Take care of every responsibility; cast every care -Jesus'yoke is light! Glorify God's name by enjoying it... amen.
Friday, July 08, 2022
Don't have a green thumb? "YOU DON'T NEED ONE!" sings (me!) ~topps
look at my cosmos' go! an explosion of orange bursts.. and bright yellow... and mixed... and deep orange outlined... oh! i love these flowersand i so delighted, in disbelief , the first time i read the back of the seed package.. wish i had a pix. essentially it said,
-you don't have to plant, you can just scatter the seeds on top of the dirt..
-they don't require good soil, they'll grow in average or even poor soil..
-they don't require a lot of water; drought-friendly..
and it all sounded to good to be true.. i had to give it a go.. and! WOW! these flowers.. all they need you to do is scatter some seed on top of soil in the summer, and then back off and let 'nature do the rest' as the saying goes.
~miracles on a stem. God's generosity. and you know how you say "Thank You!" -you enjoy them! and say "Thank You!" hallelujah & amen.
Thursday, July 07, 2022
Dear Santa Clara County Superior Court Judges, #NOTonNOBLE
We are all learning as we go.. I've never had cause to use the word injunction.. but I just learned that City Council Members do not have that authority; To request an injunction you must go to Superior Court of Santa Clara County and contact Judges. -and so, that is exactly what we are doing... /getting a kind of crash course in U.S. government studies..
*****
Judge (insert name here), /don't forget to use Honorable, or Chief when appropriate..
We seek an immediate injunction regarding San Jose City Council's underhanded 8-2 vote to place 100 bed, homeless, Tiny Home Community on Noble in the Berryessa Area. The vote was consciously, intentionally made without community input. The entire neighborhood population is livid and scrambling to uprise and fight on such short notice. The precedent set, if this 100 bed homeless Tiny Homes is permitted in this very sensitive location, will have far reaching and dangerous ramifications. If this sensitive location is not off limits.. nothing ever will be. They are mistakenly destroying all to (questionably) help the few.
'San Jose has 120 days to explore alternative options to the sites selected," officials said.
9 REASONS THE NOBLE LOCATION IS AN IRRESPONSIBLE, NEGLIGENT, POTENTIALLY ILLEGAL, PROBABLY UNCONSTITUTIONAL IDEA:
2. It is directly across the street from Noble Elementary School.
3. It is directly across the street from Noble Library
4. It is directly across the street from a day care center
5. It is very near Toyon Elementary
6. It is down the street from Piedmont Middle School
7. It is land that has been and is, a popular park, walking trail for countless neighbors, families, and a sanctuary for a wide variety of wild life; indigenous; migratory
9. It ignores zoning ordinances which restrict single-family residential (up to eight dwelling units per acre).
The parents of this neighborhood are losing sleep with this looming in their hearts and minds; having to wonder if... wonder if.. 100 bed homeless, Tiny Homes will be across from their children's school and taking over the sacred wildlife park, walking/hiking visiting nature area. We are already dealing with higher crime rates, including home invasions in the Berryessa Neighborhood area. These parents do not need to have this looming also.
A large group of us showed up at San Jose City Council 6/28 only to be jostled in and out of the chambers at their whim, going through security twice, having our open forum time put off and changed three times, then having our 2 minutes cut to 1 minute.
We are united for 3 goals: 1. To have the Noble site relocated. 2. To have the Percolation Pond/Neighborhood Park permanently protected so these wonderful, devoted, very busy parents don't have to fight this every few years. and 3. An injunction which will allow us proper time to respond and reach our goals. We are learning as we go. "Thank You!" for your consideration, and for letting us know what our next step(s) should be.
REPEAT: This is not a 'housing' crisis, It is economic; fiscal at its core
instead of taking up more/space/resources/budget creating brand new 'affordable' [tiny] homes throughout the city, might i suggest (again) we make the homes/apartments that already exist more affordable. -stop pushing people out and then scrambling for what to do with them next.
30% lost job..
if 68% cant afford rent... 60% 'not enough income' 47% No housing available (? where/at what price point?) 42% not enough money for moving costs
research and prayers continue.. amen.
DR NiMbY = Damn Right Not In My Backyard -says (me!) ~topps
We need a more accurate vocabulary. May I suggest instead of this blanket 'unhoused' or 'homeless'
we be a bit more specific: Healthy & Temporarily Unhoused
Drug Addicted or
Mentally Ill, or
Prematurely released inmate
In Jesus name, We pray for the true/real problem to be identified; and for the intelligent, humanitarian minds/hearts of people who can problem solve at this grand level to step up and out into the light and introduce themselves.. we need you! hallelujah & amen.