Friday, November 15, 2024

#theheartseen #213 fresh & fun additions...

 



-i couldn't take enough pictures of 'the heart seen' from our backyard yesterday.  gorgeous!

hallelujah & amen!

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and 2 new fun additions to my 213 collection also..    -from the movie, vijay 69, -family friendly, charming, wonderful watch..    and then, from joyce meyers, enjoying everyday life program..

hallelujah & amen to that too!





Thursday, November 14, 2024

Poetry in Progress by (me!) ~topps, sandra, writeousmom


 -sometimes poems arrive to me fully formed

-others just a few words..  i work out the rest

-still others, a begining, and ending, one or both, i fill the rest in

and sometimes, just the idea of...  i work out the whole thing

-sometimes they rhyme; sometimes they don't; sometimes they are hybrids

-some are short, some medium, some epic..

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sometimes i have time, immediately to work the poem out to completion

sometimes, i don't.

sometimes, it arrives in small pieces, over a long time; sometimes pieces throughout a week; or a day

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all of that to say:  i have 2 poems currently in progress and i do not know when the windows of time will appear for me to complete them;  so, i am sharing process here:

1.   zero poem  (that is to be the title)  it is a play on words to be sure

of course it does not mean,  -zero, as in no praying..  rather, it IS an actual prayer i pray to Jesus, where i say, "return me to zero Jesus"    -this is a short cut communication, Jesus already knowing what it means

   what does it mean?  it means i recognize at certain times in my life; in my youth; i had zero concerns about this or that..     i had zero concerns because i had not yet been exposed to the potential of something going very wrong..

i.e.,  zero concerns about accidents; zero concerns about getting too little sleep; zero concerns about drownings; zero concerns regarding the faithfulness of friends; zero concerns about... [fill in the blank]

now, at near 60 years old; of course i have had through actual life experience; through other people's very real testimonies; through movies; through books; through radio; through non and fiction

and these 'going very wrong' sides reveal themselves; accumulate decade by decade;  i mean, can any product from food, to furniture, to gifts be purchased that does not have a warning label of one kind or another.  

 i pause to remember..  wow! at one point i was free from all these concerns..      what a glorious freedom we might not even realize we are enjoying!  and of course,  

we learn from; we learn to avoid this; take precautions here; keep your antennas up over here; take safety classes; due diligence..   we don't deny; we don't ignore; we walk hand in hand with risk factors 

and i lean on..   don't worry about anything; pray about everything

this is my practice.  and it takes a lot of practice.  but my short cut prayer, i say, 'return me to zero Jesus!'    on the inside; how i feel inside

when i didnt even know i needed to worry about..     and it turned out that i didn't.

and i do actually get to re-experience that level of peace sometimes;  -imagine that.

but this time around i am conscious of it. 

selah!  hallelujah & amen.

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the other poem in progress, had to do with having the light returned to my eyes..  i said that to my children long ago..  "when you two are in college, i'm going to work for former President Jimmy Carter,  -help with human trafficking, and help return the light into the victims eyes

-this never manifested

however, i am aware of how evil steals the light; and how God can restore it

God placed it on my heart, that the light in my eyes..  that has been restored in my eyes

Son beams.    and now that is how i look at others, the lens with which i look through..

so if i am looking at you, you are receiving the love, light, warmth, of Son beams..

and the heat too..

i can see with the ability to burn write through..   to scorch..

and this poem contains those ideas in essence.

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zero prayer * son beams     these are 2 poems in progress; brewing inside me now..

with no idea when they will be completed.

"cheers!" to the brewing process..     amen.  

Wednesday, November 13, 2024

Meeting Martha & Snoop Dogg (~topps! & sexy!)



-remember how i told you, time is the greatest editor of them all!
so, with the passing of even more time, 
now my bullet points have even fewer bullet points

 * I was demonstrating my Mag Time Frames anywhere and everywhere i could

trade shows, scrapbook stores/workshops, tv spots, magazines..  made a tv commercial

 * at some point, producer from the Martha Stewart Show called me

 * when i returned the call, i had a type of anxiety/panic attack  -while- i was leaving a message

/with no way to erase or delete.. or start over

and so, they would have heard the few numbers in my phone number, and then a long scream

not a shining moment for me.

and i knew i'd blew my chance.

* fast forward to a 2nd chance!  a new opportunity!

but then, 

martha was put in jail.

not a shining moment for her either.

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she would know though..   with all her experience in the arts, hobby, craft industry

she would understand the value and novelty of the product i brought to market in the early 2000's. [2002/2003-2006...]

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then, to see her with snoop dogg..      just plain fun.
and it is after one of his corona commercials we started having fun with my nick-name (term of endearment); and started using 2 p's in   ~topps.   instead of 1.

"t. o.  double p..  s"


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havent watched the martha documentary yet, but will first chance;  along with the luther vandross documentary..   and i've certainly been enjoying snoop doggs contributions on the voice as a judge

would love to meet them both; we would. 

hallelujah & amen

Wednesday, November 06, 2024

#vellumdays -in progress fall 2024






 when time allows, i will write more about the sharks game..  how cool that was  "Thank You Nancy!" (and Joanne!)   the SAP VENUE!  how exciting to witness thousands of seats lighting up..   in combination with the singularly best DJ music experience of my life; honestly...     what a stand out..

got me to imagining     filled with 17,000 Christians..    youth revival..     what a party!   what a glorious venue..     hallelujah & amen 

Tuesday, November 05, 2024

Independent Bible Study; Scriptures that speak of love.. by (me!) -sandra, topps, writeousmom


this started some time ago; just as i was reading the Bible, keep a yellow highlighter in hand, and when i came across the word love; highlight that scripture

after a certain amount of reading, retype those highlighted scriptures into a word document.  ( i used to do longhand )

i did a healthy chunk, and then put it aside for quite some time

holy spirit guided me back   -just two at a time

which has resulted in better consistency.   on some days, i was inspired to do more than 2..

i can keep going..

     -just 2,  2 at a time-

because it is about consistency and discipline and practice;   less all or nothing; less lots, then none

   -more small & steady..    

and, this first round is focused on highlighting the word love,  identifying those scriptures

but i am inspired to re-read and focus on other words   -righteousness will be next; but there is much more after that too.

*****

i have grown to LOVE being a Christian; grown to LOVE reading the Bible

LOVE cultivating a relationship with Jesus, God, the Holy Spirit, which deepens by the year

hallelujah, amen!  

 

Sunday, October 27, 2024

Best Ever Halloween Costume & Pizza Party 2024!












                                          
















                                      


"Thank You! Awesome Friends and Family for making this the best halloween party we've ever had!   

                                              /but not the best halloween party we'll ever have...

YOU BROUGHT IT AGAIN!  great costumes, conversations, energy.. and amazing food/dessert contributions!

Co-creators of great times, that so quickly become great memories...  

We love you! 

  Happy Halloween 2024!

" I SEE YOU HERE NEXT YEAR... I SEE EVERYTHING.."



Wednesday, October 16, 2024

Unhoused People & Environment Summit: our 60 seconds @ the open mic...




entire reason we even bothered at all is because 1.)  Richard Santos inspired us with his talk at BCAC..  a gathering of people with the authority to take action!    -not just talk...     and 2.)  Our cherished friends the Wilson's,  they were willing to sit through another... who knows how many hours, and how much BS,  to get that 1 minute to speak..

so, we were inspired by them also

and thank them here again for driving..

-k-, so,   we each wrote our 1 minute talks, which i will share in this post as i receive copies of them..

and, as you can see from the agenda, we had to wait through 3 hours of...     

and this is where Jesus won! -where i am concerned..

because, i am not exaggerating to say that it took some 911 silent prayer activity on my part not to stand up on my seat and make a scene

stand up on my seat, and start yelling..    "Enough of your BS! already.."    i held myself to my seat with both hands

and i'd like to thank the Holy Spirit here for helping me exercise the fruit of the spirit named, self-control.

God can only help, if you ask, otherwise it would be called God-control, not self-control;  -write, 

but anyway, 

it is also a good thing I didn't have this with me:


   -because i think i would have stood up on my seat and started listing,  in bullet point fashion,  the $$$$ from since 2015 that has been provided for the homeless cause; 

     [employ facetious/sarcastic tone here]:   -for our veterans, mentally ill, drug addicted, unhoused, impoverished..  the most vulnerable among us..   -they use this angle every time to get the money; that then disappears... 

and it still sickens and disgusts me that this $$$$ is unaccounted for; the problem has only grown and no one seems to be being held accountable..    -criminal!

so, to listen to each and every panelist associated with a homeless non-profit,  
 
   -continue to ask for more money...    -to make pathetic excuses for not knowing where previous millions went..      -create stories around why it isnt their responsibility..      or, share a mistakes happen, attitude, and suggest we are all just supposed to ignore, forgive, and give more money..    the utter lack of accountability on anyone's part;

disgusting.

anyway,   -i could go on and on..   how stacked and dramatically unbalanced the summit was; i mean, just look at the agenda..

one woman expressed upset during her 1 minute, that there were no, unhoused, people on the panel.. and how unfair that was..

i agree. -although hard not to recognize how well they were represented by leaders from non-profits that support them and plead their cause

while the HTLC population goes ENTIRELY IGNORED,   [Hard Working, Tax Paying, Law Abiding Contributors]

there was ONE,   -ONE-  brief and vague mention of a public safety issue with a Valley Water Employee trying to clean near a creek, under a bridge..

and the rest of the three+ hours was homeless advocates asking for more money, explaining how homeless people are homeless exclusively, apparently, because of lack of affordable housing, and how lack of affordable housing is to blame for their drug and alcohol addictions

this is a little bit lost on someone like me, because all i could do was afford to rent a room (divorced, mom of two young children) and work multiple jobs, crazy shifts to do just that

so while i agree 'affordability' and 'living wages' could be improved; and i do support smaller rent increases, over longer periods of time, with more warning..

struggling to find shelter and pay rent, and or, purchase a home, are pretty common struggles, and a poor excuse for  'now i'm addicted to drugs, steal to pay for them, can't hold down a job, no one can trust me, and i am colonizing the creek, and it's someone elses responsibility to get me out of this mess

we directly know,  -have cherished friends and beloved family members who have ALL MOVED out of CALIFORNIA, to other states in the U.S. exactly because it is too expensive here.  They relocated to where the cost of living is better; there is less traffic; where they can find employment, and/or retire; and afford a place to call home..

the lack of affordable housing did not land them in the creek, or leave them panhandling on the streets, did not cause them to buy or sell drugs; beg or steal. 

and it is worth noting here, it is the HTLC Community..   the Hard-Working, Tax-Paying, Law-Abiding, Contributors  -LEAVING CALIFORNIA...       while our creeks, waterways in general, encampment populations continue to grow..     -take that to 'scale'         

heard the term "humanitarian" crisis, multiple times at this summit,   but never, "public safety crisis"  
 -which it actually is..

     -not mentioning in detail here, the impact of encampments on our waterways..  and not mentioning how way too soft 'bio-waste' sounds compared to, 'homeless defecating in and on..'   compared, maybe to  
     -the amount of human sh&%  accumulating in the waterways (on sidewalks, in parking lots.. in front of stores and restaurants)          -and 'litter' is way too soft a vocabulary for the toxic garbage, the poisonous trash that accumulates at encampments          -these euphemisms are not helping. 

i was disappointed there was not a more balanced problem solving panel, which i've been advocating for since NOTonNOBLE initally sounded alarms.

     -not one small business owner on the panel..   not one resident that lives near these creek encampments,  -no one (individual, family or business owner or staff)  no one representing anyone who has been victimized by a homeless criminal, or anyone who has had to change their route to school, work or shopping due to safety issues caused by homeless;   no one to discuss the small businesses colonized and closed.

no healthcare workers, no ER staff on the panel; no fire-fighters, no police officers..       not one of the high school students who had to have their own uprising due to multiple crimes from homeless taking over their campus.     

add on, that rumor has it, there were movers & shakers, authority figures & leaders invited to this summit, that for one reason or another,  didn't attend. 

the upshot for me, /and i may be speaking on behalf of many others..

PANELS   -as a forum for this type of problem solving are a huge waste of time, energy, human & financial resources    -especially, with such dramatic lack of balance

but panels are a waste any way you slice it, from my experience

when someone can just drone on and on, make up stories, make excuses, fast-talk, BS..   and never be interrupted or challenged,  sing a fiction song, and then just pass the mic along..

that's a waste.  and essentially we listened to the same thing being said over and over, just in a different order, by a different person

i argue here,   

  [especially having been required to edit my talk to 60 seconds..!]

but perhaps someone really, one day could,  -assess and evaluate what i'm about to say,  for the truth; the actual time and numbers:

but, if you remove all the platitudes  -all the atta boys the panel gives each other..
and you remove any/all repetitious talk,  -so that each valid point is made only once, by one person on the panel..

like if you remove every time we heard a variation of..  this is a complex problem, there's no silver bullet; its going to take all of us, and take a long time...   /and lots of money...

i suggest you place all of that on a big visible bulletin board/screen of some sort..   and require panel members themselves to EDIT THEIR TALKS

sorry.. no more panels.   -they should be banned.   where was i?    -yes!  if you remove all platitudes, atta-boys, repetitions..    this 3 hour + summit meeting could have been accomplished in 20 minutes.

what you want, if you really want to problem solve, is ROUND TABLES, with more voices/perspectives represented,   -timed/edited/thought-out ideas being shared, with opportunities to challenge, to request clarity; to add on...   to what if..   etc.

and these roundtables should be made public.

 no more waiting through 3 hours of BS for a few people to talk for 1 minute; long after the most appalling things were already said as if wonderful, genuine, fact and true.

*****   here is what we had to say, 
we =  Elva Wilson, Tom Wilson, Robert Mickanen, Sandra Harrison Kay  ****

60 SECONDS @ the SUMMIT, by Sandra

This is a public safety nightmare.  We are in a state of emergency.

We continue to advocate for Dignity Acres Emergency Campground.

And advocate for Santa Clara County Fairgrounds as the place

for Dignity Acres Emergency Campground.

The fairgrounds has over 100 acres.  The fairgrounds already has infrastructure.

The fairgrounds give first responders a place to relocate homeless individuals IMMEDIATELY. NOW. TODAY.  While we resolve the crisis in a more comprehensive way.

And This would be appropriate use of Prop 1 funding.

 We are RE-submitting here today, Our outline for

Dignity Acres Emergency Campground. 

Which is available to the public at NOTonNOBLE.blogspot.com


60 SECONDS @ the SUMMIT, by Robert

The term homeless is too one-sided and misleading. The homeless we see on the streets are not in their situation because of financial difficulty.  The people who end up homeless are the ones who destroy their relationships by their own actions. The actions that force friends, family, and apartment managers to have these dysfunctional people removed from their residence are as follows:

physical violent assaults,

intimidation,

 fear,

 threats,

stealing,

destroying the property,

 drug addiction,

 verbal assault,

conducting criminal activity,

 not respecting others,

not obeying the home rules,

 filth,

and refusing to be productive and get a job.

  Just draining their friends and family financially and mentally. After many chances, there comes a point when their friends and family can’t take the abuse from them anymore and they must leave. 

NOTE:  there were a few people talking over robert's 60 seconds,  'homeless arent criminals!'

                  /which brings me over and over to:   YES, a % of them are!  there is more than one demographic;  the homeless population colonizing our creeks, and sleeping/begging in front of our local businesses are not 100% domestic abuse victims, or 100% people unable to find affordable housing

exactly the point robert was making..  

60 SECONDS @ the SUMMIT, by Tom

Homelessness has become a major crisis in my City, and yet, it isn’t being treated as such. The number of people living on the streets in San Jose rivals those left homeless after earthquakes, hurricanes, tornadoes, fires, and floods. But, for San Jose’s homeless disaster, no federal relief is available. Why is that? Isn’t the suffering of homeless people just as real as the suffering of those displaced by catastrophic events?

The time to act is now! It’s time to lobby the federal government for funding, and It’s time to build-back our mental health and drug rehabilitation institutions. Doing so will take many years, so, in the meantime, we must immediately build tent cities large enough to shelter the entire homeless population of San Jose. Too, it’s time to find new, innovative solutions. The course of action taken thus far has been a very expensive, and very massive failure, with the biggest outcome being an ever-increasing population of those living on the streets.

We the taxpayers, will no longer accept the current trend of slowly building expensive temporary shelters for a projected outcome that only addresses a small percentage of the needed units, and which won’t come online until many years from now. Concurrently, the City is funneling the lion’s share of funding to non-profits to care for the homeless on the streets. This is a failed business model that only serves the non-profits. It doesn’t get people off the streets, in fact, it enables them to remain on the streets.

San Jose not only tolerates camping in public spaces, but encourages it by providing free goods and services like food, medicine, transportation and healthcare to campers. People in need will always migrate to where their needs are met—it’s human nature. People migrate from all over the country to live homeless in San Jose. They survive on the streets with no money, no home, no car, no insurance, and no food. The only thing they aren’t given are the tools needed for reintegration!

60 SECONDS @ the SUMMIT, by Elva

    Here is a version of my commentary given at the Unhoused Summit last week. The actual in-person commentary had to be a bit cut short, due to time limitation.

The explosion of mentally ill and drug addicted living in squalor in our streets and in our creeks is destroying the quality of our lives. The lives of the invisible community of residents affected by this crisis.  The same community you keep looking to as taxpayers for solutions to this crisis.  The community that is not represented here on any panels, either.  

The mentally ill and drug addicted floundering on streets need to be stabilized in residential treatment facilities, not in safe sleeping sites, not in expensive Tiny Homes, and definitely not in permanent housing.  

The County of Santa Clara, not the City, not  the Water District, has the legal jurisdiction, funding and technical expertise to take care of those with mental health and drug addiction (behavioral) issues living on our streets.   

The  City and County’s singular focus in addressing this crisis by providing exorbitant funding to community non-profit service providers as the primary solution to the homeless crisis has been a massive failed solution, with no accountability for results.  The growing inhumane suffering of the homeless on our streets is a loud and clear broadcast of the failure of these non-profits to manage and improve this crisis.  It's time to stop funding failure.   ( i underlined that...)

 It is mind boggling that after 3 hours of discussion from government agencies and non-profits here today at this unhoused summit, I did not hear any new solutions to this crisis that does not  involve seeking more funding from taxpayers.  

The County has under-utilized land available throughout the 15 cities (not just in SJ) under its jurisdiction which must  be explored to develop residential treatment facilities for the homeless who are mentally ill and drug addicted. 

The County keeps buying up hospitals, but continues to shirk its responsibility of utilizing these facilities it acquires as desperately needed mental health and drug rehab institutions to house and treat our mentally ill and drug addicted.  Please start acting on behalf of the people you were elected to represent.


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from the archives:  roundtable flyer from NOTonNOBLE protest



while we are on this topic:






the population is enormous, but how do we answer the questions for
just this one individual?

-who, by the way, a friend of mine and i just encountered recently on the corner
of hostetter and capital.   we were at a red light at the intersection, my passenger side window down, and he was only a few feet away.  he was talking, then yelling, then screaming in a language unfamiliar to me.

i could sense his hostility growing and felt him trying to get my attention

life experience told me not to make eye contact

our light turned green, and we carried on.

*****

ALSO  -in my 'here's a fair question' category..

HOW ARE WE DEFINING  -SAFE-

PUBLIC SAFETY.

Actual definition?

For me,  -in my imagination:  Where you can have a grandma, mommy with baby & stroller
walking together, from here to there,  and 

not just  -feeling-  safe; but BEING SAFE.

Where it is clean and safe for families to walk, picnic, shop, live, study, play, rest, work;
free from any kind of violence, harm or threat.

oh! these places are the goal!  growing more and more safe places for families.

selah! 

"My Art Gallery Debut!" (dove art gallery, milpitas!)

   -and i had written about dove art gallery not too long ago without any prior knowledge of..   without any desire or thought that my mixed media art..

-just a wonderful gallery to pop in on occasionally and enjoy

what happened, is that they were in between exhibits during our last walk-by, and accepting applications..     i still didn't even consider..

my sexy said to me, "want to have some of your art put in there?"

and i was like,  "-no.  i'm still trying to finish the flowers for yard art..."

and my sexy said to me..  "it doesn't have to be something new you create, it can be something you've already created..    like the owl"

  -that changed my entire outlook.  and i am very grateful to have my fall owl bliss mixed media art making its gallery debut.  

and i'll tell ya somethin' even more fun, to me personally..     when we visited the san jose art museum, i took a number of pictures of art that inspired me, and we took our picture   -with-  my favorite art piece

so, to be inside dove gallery, and watch without people realizing,  -watch them take their picture -with- my owl..

early Christmas present!   -made my day..     "thank you!" to my sexy for suggesting/encouraging me.. and

"Thank You!" to Rob Carol, founder, curator DoveGallery.com   

hallelujah & amen