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THOUGHTS ON SELF CONSCIOUSNESS by (me!) sandra, tvgp

Original post: 11/09/2011: *** i must include myself.. but easier to report on the fascinating behaviors of people i witness/observe

when they see themselves

in a picture or video

how one person.. upon seeing themself in a video.. which, by the way, included a crowd of people

how said person's eye went only and exclusively to themself in the video.. blocking out every other thing taking place

"that's terrible, how i have my hands. how i'm holding my hands like that..."

and no one else even noticed until it was pointed out. even then.. like, what's the big deal?

but said person would just rather never be video taped again. -because -well, what if anyone saw this strange holding hands things

the unconscious made overly-self-conscious.


and then, if you contrast something like that with a movie star; an actor..

a person willing to be seen on the gigantic silver screen by masses of people -with strange hand holding... bubble gum chewing, butt scratching, burping, stuttering... whatever

they don't care

they are somehow self-consciousless...

the brain wiring differences between the two fascinates me. the overly self-conscious vs. the self-consciousless

and then..

add to my fascination -how actors can be entirely self-consciousless when they are.. acting.

sharing the truth of an imaginary person/situation.. (semi-quoting ashley judd there),

but become self-conscious when they are required to be... their real self.


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add to my fascination..

the desire for actors to appear authentic.. that is, the greatest actors of our time, are the ones who do the best job of talking/behaving in a way that is closest to the way -a non actor

would talk/behave in a given situation.

authentic response.

and how the authentic response can be very different, for different people, in the exact same situation...

but all reveals where we are each at in the spiritual spectrum of life...

and reveals wiring..

turn the camera on one... action begins. turn the camera on another... action stops.

but even for actors... for great actors

behaviors change when they are conscious of a camera being on them; vs. unaware...

we can further complicate, by including times when an actor only -suspects- but does not know a camera is on them

when they think there is a camera on them, but there is not..

when they think there is not a camera on, but there is... [please note the use of the word think vs. know]

further complicate with what i will here call, acting fractals..

an actor, acting like an actor, who is trying not to act for the camera.. /this can go on and on...

but always..

somewhere in there.. is a hunt for authenticity

why?


because it exists.

posted by SHE @ 8:44 AM