-MASTERPIECE- to (me!) sandra, tvgp
"thank you!" Carla
and,
it's awful, isn't it..
like, I don't know HOW it's going to end,
but I know it WILL end.
I can hold the entire thing in my hand! beginning, middle; end.
I am forced to reckon with the fact there is an end
every time I pick it up.
this is in part, why readers love -volumes-
[ever hold an infant and...
I mean,
with a human.. you know also -write
with a human life
but you don't know.
you can't hold an entire human life span in the palm of your hand; only the beginning
you hold the beginning
until it gets too big, too heavy
and then you -let go.
this gets me to thinkin' about things
we can vs. we cannot just watch... disappear.
a glass of wine. an insect. a flower.
life spans. beginnings; endings
but every word I'm writing write now
it's all just a form of procrastination
there is such an art to it!
psychological, spiritual, practical and mysterious art
/not science.
blocking out the fact it will come to an end
so as to thoroughly enjoy every word of every page...
but I know in advance, write now
and with every sentence and every paragraph I read:
I will suffer
from the last page blues
and
i'm thrilled about it!
plus,
Catherine has already
match-made for (me!)
not one,
but
TWO
rebound relationships:
lilac girls & the language of flowers
and I can hear myself in advance
/from too much experience
oh! it's not the same.. it's not the same..
there will never be another..
/but, [wipe tear, ... kiss new book...]
it is helping..
posted by SANDRA HARRISON KAY @ 10:55 AM
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