SHEsaysWITHaSMILE.blogspot.com

CH = C.I.A.

and, so, since it is one of my favorite, favorite, cerebral hyperlinks, I asked squidmann if he could

re-release his blog posts and  'the picture'

and the short version for why I posed for this picture goes like this:

I wanted to lift leonard stegmann's spirits; I wanted to make him smile

-because, 

because, these two very awful facts..

well, I had been reading and responding to his blogs for YEARS!  -a friendship of the online/writing/blogging kind grew over and through all that reading/responding

and so somewhere near in time, I knew..  I knew, his mom was ill; had passed     /and over the years, other very dear, very close family members at different times, for different reasons..

and, then..  

well, from 1978!  his mom..   she had gifted leonard and his brother these 'naked Hawaiian girl calendars'   /not the real title, but you have to read his post to appreciate..

anyway..  when he went to re-order the calendar his mom originally gifted him -the one he had been reordering every year for many, many.. years! like,  -decades!

and they sent him a letter they were no longer in business.. no longer publishing...

 I just couldn't bare it..   /k, that's funny..

I mean,   - I just couldn't take it..

and, combine the death/physical absence of his mom, with the -no longer printing the naked Hawaiian girl calendar

and so,    

I had my sister take this picture of me with the intention of cheering him up.

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but, if you've read me long enough

and know about all my cerebral hyperlinks   /overwhelming...

at least this is a very, very, fun one

because, 

when Robert..   my sexy..    love of my life

when he shared with (me!) that his father, now deceased, had a career with the C.I.A.

I just smiled so big..       / -have I got a secret code for you

how wild is that?!?

I mean,  -I need to make a few very minor edits, of course..

-son- of a c.i.a. agent..

and he's not blind..   /but I do like the room pretty dark, and sometimes he closes his eyes when we're kissin'

 ...he is highly trained..

and ambidextrous, might be a bit of a...     reach, but

he is quite capable of using both hands 

and so, 

can you imagine my

I mean,  his

surprise!

and of course, this is all still  -tops-  secret

but, I mean   

well, i'll have to research to be sure, but

I believe he has something like

25 years from the date of my comments above 

before the classified information in my nipples is automatically declassified anyway

but meanwhile, 

the security of our entire nation might be at stake    -write.

and so, 

"keep reading..   sexy..    trace my nipples with your fingers..

and since this is flesh braille, if it becomes hard to decipher

  you just kiss.. 

lick..

and then softly blow..

the secret clues will be even easier to read."

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and just for fun, of course..    

I told squidmann, via email, upon seeing this picture again, several years later

I said,   it speaks to the level of our friendship..    /or to me being slightly tilted.. but let's go with the altruistic version

and in the squidmann fashion I've come to know and appreciate,  he responded by saying

a real friend would have dropped her arms.

/see, why I enjoyed reading/responding for all those years;  fun!

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and in case you are just droppin' in

I read and responded via comments to leonardstegmann.blogspot.com every day -ish for NINE YEARS.   when he published/converted into books,  his work/posts/writings via amazon, one of the STUPID rules is that you cannot have your writings also posted online   -so, nine years of archives; unpublished.  -just like that..    and,  all happened when I was just on the brink of successfully promoting us,  'squidmann & she' as the 21st century 84 charing cross road..

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anyway, 

he has very graciously and very temporarily reposted the calendar/nipples/c.i.a. related blogs, and green-lit my temporarily re-posting them here   -see, That Damn Naked Hawaiian Girl Calendar

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and, now..  Robert, my sexy..

he is busy with Tops ~Secret Information.

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In Jesus, is the King of Spiritual Intelligence Agents..  name.    -amen.