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Poetry in Progress by (me!) ~topps, sandra, writeousmom

 -sometimes poems arrive to me fully formed

-others just a few words..  i work out the rest

-still others, a begining, and ending, one or both, i fill the rest in

and sometimes, just the idea of...  i work out the whole thing

-sometimes they rhyme; sometimes they don't; sometimes they are hybrids

-some are short, some medium, some epic..

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sometimes i have time, immediately to work the poem out to completion

sometimes, i don't.

sometimes, it arrives in small pieces, over a long time; sometimes pieces throughout a week; or a day

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all of that to say:  i have 2 poems currently in progress and i do not know when the windows of time will appear for me to complete them;  so, i am sharing process here:

1.   zero poem  (that is to be the title)  it is a play on words to be sure

of course it does not mean,  -zero, as in no praying..  rather, it IS an actual prayer i pray to Jesus, where i say, "return me to zero Jesus"    -this is a short cut communication, Jesus already knowing what it means

   what does it mean?  it means i recognize at certain times in my life; in my youth; i had zero concerns about this or that..     i had zero concerns because i had not yet been exposed to the potential of something going very wrong..

i.e.,  zero concerns about accidents; zero concerns about getting too little sleep; zero concerns about drownings; zero concerns regarding the faithfulness of friends; zero concerns about... [fill in the blank]

now, at near 60 years old; of course i have had through actual life experience; through other people's very real testimonies; through movies; through books; through radio; through non and fiction

and these 'going very wrong' sides reveal themselves; accumulate decade by decade;  i mean, can any product from food, to furniture, to gifts be purchased that does not have a warning label of one kind or another.  

 i pause to remember..  wow! at one point i was free from all these concerns..      what a glorious freedom we might not even realize we are enjoying!  and of course,  

we learn from; we learn to avoid this; take precautions here; keep your antennas up over here; take safety classes; due diligence..   we don't deny; we don't ignore; we walk hand in hand with risk factors 

and i lean on..   don't worry about anything; pray about everything

this is my practice.  and it takes a lot of practice.  but my short cut prayer, i say, 'return me to zero Jesus!'    on the inside; how i feel inside

when i didnt even know i needed to worry about..     and it turned out that i didn't.

and i do actually get to re-experience that level of peace sometimes;  -imagine that.

but this time around i am conscious of it. 

selah!  hallelujah & amen.

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the other poem in progress, had to do with having the light returned to my eyes..  i said that to my children long ago..  "when you two are in college, i'm going to work for former President Jimmy Carter,  -help with human trafficking, and help return the light into the victims eyes

-this never manifested

however, i am aware of how evil steals the light; and how God can restore it

God placed it on my heart, that the light in my eyes..  that has been restored in my eyes

Son beams.    and now that is how i look at others, the lens with which i look through..

so if i am looking at you, you are receiving the love, light, warmth, of Son beams..

and the heat too..

i can see with the ability to burn write through..   to scorch..

and this poem contains those ideas in essence.

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zero prayer * son beams     these are 2 poems in progress; brewing inside me now..

with no idea when they will be completed.

"cheers!" to the brewing process..     amen.  

posted by SANDRA HARRISON KAY @ 9:30 AM