brain spill, so i can make art (me!), sandra, tvgp
this is not two separate chapters; it is two separate books; on opposites sides of the library, but let me spill two and be on with my art:
1. -recent conversation with a single friend, who.. she has been on MANY dates.. and has had sex with just about every single person she has dated. -she seems hurt; mildly, when the relationship, which never gets fully off the ground
/or bed, or floor, or wherever
ends. and seems hurt; mildly, when her former date is now dating and having sex with someone new.
but fast forward several months, and, she has new stories, of new dates, and new sex partners, and new endings..
I am just never sure whether I should be admiring her bounce-back-ability and willingness to get back out there.. down there/over there..
or has she just gone numb? -especially in contrast to other singles who, hurt once or twice; retreat entirely for many months and sometimes years.
baffles me.
the hurt spectrum in humans; what does and doesn't hurt; and how much.. for me personally, there is a direct correlation to emotional pain and whether or not I have been intimate with a person..
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focusing on spectrums really:
- guilt and caring.
baffles me; fascinates me. -just last night had a bible study friend share about her guilt -after she was cut off in traffic and let a few obscene words escape..
vs. all the people I know who experience no guilt at all about such a thing.. vs. a violent criminal..
the spectrum.. from the least harmful to the worst; and the spectrum of guilt attached to the crime; if guilt is perceived at all..
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and then,
change bookcases: my brother was write. -long, long, ago he suggested to me, if everyone on the planet were the same skin color -there would still be wars/fights/violence.. based on something else.
and he is very write, isn't he. -because all this time, skin color, and gender and orientation and religions or social status, and geographic territories have been masks
excuses
distractors from the real ongoing war which is between oppressors/tyrants/controllers/terrorists
and freedom/equality/kindness/respect... the real war, -which wears many masks, is between
slavery and freedom
evil and love.
fear and peace.
as true for each individual as it is for families, neighborhoods, societies, cultures, nations..
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.. mental declutter to free space for...
posted by SHE @ 11:09 AM
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