addressing anxiety of unknown origins by (me!), sandra, tvgp
remember always what Diana nyad said; and has taught us: /I paraphrase:mind over matter is the luxury of a healthy mind.
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I love being able to have short-cut conversations with people, where because we both have a common experience and understanding, there is no need to explain, or try to explain in detail..
my co-worker friend, recently shared about experiencing anxiety from an unknown source.. and related, that the last time she experienced something like this, she, shortly after, learned of the death of a loved one.
(me!) too. on more than one occasion, but the standout in this moment, is when, I went... and it seemed in the moment, and at the time.. -for no reason...
but I just got up and went over to the couch-bed, and curled up into a ball. -just laid there, for an unremembered amount of time, but, its like for a time, I just had nothing in me..
nothing to give the world.. no energy to do anything; no inspiration; and no ability to override the nothingness through force of will, or determination..
I knew intuitively to just surrender; just lay there in a ball, until it passed.. this nothingness.. -all energy vacuumed out...
and I later learned that my grandmother had died. and my daughter too.. she also experienced something, unique to her, but tied to the same event..
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-that then, becomes its own, unique, identifiable, internal sensation.. identified, just the way, my co-worker friend, kim, described.. "the same as when I learned (name) died.."
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but that got us on the topic of anxiety in general, and, I am awful about memorizing passages.. I have only short-cuts in my mind, and to offer off my tongue..
but I make every effort to catch anxiety at its very, very, onset and fight back..
having lost so many years to PTSD, and well aware, I have a countable number of years ahead left to live, God willing..
I am very precious about each moment..
I do regard, for me.. anxiety as spiritual warfare.. -I say, for me, because I am aware, for a percentage of the population; anxiety has very physical, biological roots, which require medicines, and neuro-repair, -these passages I'm about to share would have been of little, if any, help, at all while I had PTSD..
but for me.. it is at this point, its spiritual.
when I begin to feel anxious, I do these things, and the order always changes, but:
HOLD EVERY THOUGHT CAPTIVE.. and, I have added on, -and put it through the holy filter..
so I do not accept an anxious thought as a fact, or truth, or at face-value; I question... I stop it in its tracks, and ask a few questions..
CAST MY CARES.. I say to myself, 'I have no time for worries.. giving this to you God..' -very aware I need energy for productive things.. and worry/anxiety is an energy zapper..
CAN AN HOUR BE ADDED... i examine the productive power of worry.. if i worry all day about this or that.. will it effect any change? is it anything i have control over, by worrying about it? is there an actual action i can take to minimize or alleviate it? -and where action can be taken; i do.. and where i have no control, i give to God
and then of course:
there is this passage; so specific in its instructions there is no room for doubt or misinterpretation:
do not be anxious about anything. but in every situation
by prayer and petition
with thanksgiving
present your request to God.
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to which i can only say, "okay! thank you Jesus! amen"
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best of times: google, bible verses on anxiety and worry..
i offer a teaspoon, but there you can feast.
posted by SHE @ 9:11 AM
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