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That Q's write.  Let me explain a big subtle difference to you.  Via... Embarrassing moment #97832.

I'm alone at ricks picks the other day.  Well, not alone-alone; there's always God, and Google, and some sister alarm security company holding the umbrella for his big brother.

But what I mean of course is that the store was empty..

Not empty-empty.  Of course the shelves are full! of  'top brand, wonderful quality merchandise at deep discount prices!'

But its going to take ~too long to get to the good part unless I can devise a way to explain...

[  ~ = return later to write about how delightful it is to talk vs. Write sometimes because  -well, at least I have never had anyone stop me mid-sentence to ask if I meant 'to' or 'two' or 'too'     -everyone figures it out within the context of a larger conversation..

As I think it should be for riding.    

/who caught on the quickest?

Where were we?  Oh yes!

So the store is empty and I'm alone in the cash register area.. And I am wanting to leave a "happy mothers day" note for my awesome coworker/manager friend to see when she comes in the morning of..

So I write the sweet little note..

Only it doesn't feel like enough.    But! Let me put that in " " marks because; this is write about where I switch from thinking politely to myself to..  #thinking out loud.

-who among you already knows where I'm headed?

"..this doesn't seem like enough!  Isn't there something around here? Any little thing.. A piece of candy or a fun little toy? I can leave"

And so please accompany the fact that I'm talking out loud with the fact that I am also looking in every direction ... For i dont know what exactly..  

And my God do I wish I would have seen anything other than a man staring and smiling at me that i had no idea was there!

In under one olympic second my mind leaped to trying to see me from his point of view..

"Crazy lady in the store.  Who let her in here?  Should I help her out?  Does she bite?"

Oh honey my face was a new hue of red.

I knew it would only get worse if I tried to explain..  But I tried anyway and then...stopped.  half way through.. Only serving, of course, to confirm...

He seem to start walking backwards in a slow and steady pace, and dont tell rick.. But looks like I scared off a potential paying customer.

Now!  Here's the big subtle difference:

"I was thinking out loud! I was NOT talking to myself!"

The only time I actually "talk" to myself is here in this blog..

Comments to my own posts sometimes..

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But the whole thing got me thinking today.. When my children pointed to (to, not at) one of their school friends who is ..what diagnosis? We are not privy to the information.. But some visible signs of  -physical and mental challenges.

And they commented about how this person is always talking to himself.

See?  -so I wonder..  Maybe he's not literally talking to himself, but rather..

"Thinking out loud!"

I actually wish and hope and pray

And I frequently ask people to please! "Think out loud"

Because.. That's how I learn.

So many times people will be near me.. Thinking silently about how to solve a problem or negotiate a deal or address an issue of one kind or another.. And its quiet, quiet, quiet..

And their eyes move a little..   And you can see on the outside that they are thinking, processing..  Keeping some ideas, tossing out others

But they don't "think out loud" until the decision is made or the answer comes to them..

I want to know everything!

Anyway...  I'm pretty convinced also that when I say with humor, "my toggle switch" is broken -when I get caught thinking out loud..

That there is actually some truth to that..   My bladder is not what it used to be either..   As we age any variety of body parts starts to wear down..

I was gonna try and explain all this to that man..

But I sneezed just as he got to the door and that got a little messy so I just prayed to Jesus

And I really can't wait for the day that that man comes back in the store because I'm dying to tell him about how really Im not a crazy lady and I don't talk to myself..

But I did talk with God.  

"And he told (me!) To tell you.. Jesus loves you!"

Amen.

posted by SHE @ 11:44 PM