When I go.. I go. By (me!) Sandra, tvgp
let those who have ears to hear; hear. PTSD was so life consuming.. as I healed there became opportunities for me to take self-defense classes.. This would make the most sense, yes? yes.. Especially if you read my prior post.. But! What I found, was that self-defense classes themselves retriggered PTSD symptoms and the battle would start all over again. What I learned is that I was better off.. Enjoyed a better day to day quality of life.. Away from.. Without classes that retriggered. Self defense needs to take place before to prevent.. start with a healthy mind. -so, it seems the ultimate vulnerability.. I can't defend myself, really..
Same with owning a gun.. It made things worse..
So, I had to surrender utterly.. the quality of my day to day life was so far superior as I healed from PTSD.. that anything, even if it promised to save my life, ended up so costly in terms of setting me back and re-triggering symptoms..
That I just had to say to myself and Jesus, "when I go; I go."
and for everyday of peace I experience.. I am enormously grateful. for every symptom-free day.. or low levels.. I am enormously grateful.
"Thank you Jesus!". Amen.
posted by SHE @ 10:52 AM
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