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THERE IS NO PICTURE OF THE TREES HERE -mrs sandra mickanen

 there would be a beautiful picture here; a picture i took myself..     of many trees, actually, in one setting:

from the deck at the 1909 in topanga.

i am not writing about these trees, and my incredible experience with the trees because i want to;

rather, 

i am writing about the beautiful trees because i have been inspired; divinely directly to..   

inspired:  in spirit    via spirit, 

anyway, 

shortest version  -because all my energy has been sucked up being all..  *&^#R)!  with the HEIC hi-jacking of my photos  (see prior post)

goes like this:   

when i am a passenger in a car on freeways  

-despite what vehicle; despite who is driving

i make a special, extra effort not to look out the windshield..

i need to either keep my eyes closed; or just sink down in the seat, so that i can't see out the windshield.

under these circumstances, i can be at ease.  at peace.

if/when i do look out..      my mind says 3 seconds to fatal accident..

i have not been able to override my mind, or my bodies reaction to what my mind is telling me.

if i close my eyes, or don't look..    i'm fine.

via prayer, i remind Jesus,  -every act of being a passenger on long drives for me, is a GIANT ACT OF FAITH.. 

BLIND FAITH seems to work the best   /i say with a smile. 

in any case, we had cause to be on the freeways in southern california recently..  which, as anyone familiar knows, are some of the most, awful, most high stakes, most crazy,   -high risk freeways

it was EXHAUSTING to be a passenger   -i can only imagine how taxing on drivers..

short cut to..

i was saying to myself; myself and Jesus..     i'm doing the very best i can   -but i don't think i can do this anymore..   i can't do it again..  i can't even do this with my eyes closed..

i can still feel the sudden jerks to avoid..     the having to slam on the breaks..

the having to speed up to change lanes.. the near misses..

feel the 18 wheelers..     hear the motorcycles..   

so..

we make it and we are still alive, and we finally, and at last, arrive at the 1909, 

we park.   i pray many thank you's..

but my internal state:    -the most stress i can carry without having an actual heart attack.

so, 

we walk from the car to the deck..  in nature on a beautiful day, surrounded by all these gorgeous trees, 

and this is what it felt like:

it felt like all those trees just vacuumed the stress write out of my body!

and i was light, stress free, at ease..    and completely present in the moments; every moment of being there.

****

was it just finally being out of the car and off the freeways?

it is my belief, it was the trees!    had we parked and walked into a building..

i don't think the result would have been as instantaneous.

*****

"Thank You Jesus!  -for the trees..  for fresh air..   for nature..  for the blue sky..   for the sunshine..

for the trees..  for the trees..   for the trees..   for your ongoing love, careful watch & protection. 

selah! hallelujah & amen

****

why we were there in the 1st place..  in topanga..   future post.

posted by SANDRA MICKANEN @ 9:22 AM