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"i did it!" -by faith; and not by sight -sandra mickanen

 do want to briefly share, that last month, we

-we, as in my husband, who did all the driving..

we drove over 1500 miles..  which included A LOT of freeway driving.

i was in the front passenger side for all of it; beloved family in the back seats/car seat

but, 

it is still true, i cannot look out the front windshield on a freeway..  without my brain/body reacting as if fatality is coming in under 3 seconds..

i experiment now and then; but have learned i just can't override that auto-reaction

however, 

if i don't look out the front windshield

if i close my eyes, or keep my attention on making art, or playing word games on my phone, or organizing pictures on my phone..    

if i tuck my whole body down in the seat, so that, with my eyes open, i don't have access to the view out of the front windshield, 

applying this method allowed me to do, to participate in all the traveling we did; which allowed me to participate in all the family activities,  -which has resulted in a ton of wonderful memories..

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so, when i quote the scripture, about living by faith and not by sight..  

but, isn't it odd..   it is exclusive to freeway driving

i can still drive off freeway fine; as a driver or a passenger..

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do you think, that i think, i should spend any time, energy, effort trying to 'conquer' this issue i cannot override in my brain?   -force myself to look out the windshield while on a freeway in hopes i become desensitized at some point... 

i do not.

i found another way...    by faith; and not by sight. 

"Thank You Jesus!"    hallelujah & amen

posted by SANDRA MICKANEN @ 9:45 AM