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i feed on this type of documentary; "Thank You!" for it.  I like to listen by watching fully, and then re-watching with a remote in my hand to pause, rewind, play, and write verbatim what i've heard.  -something about the platform, hulu, made it so that, if i paused to rewind, this action would always take me back to the beginning of the documentary, i was not able to go back a couple seconds, or scenes..   i was brought back to the beginning, and then had to always re-find where i was before i paused..

that prevented me from investing the time i would have..  so i am writing this more from memory than notes, although using both

FREE WILL & FREE SPEECH:  this is the first thing that stood out to me.  free will & free speech were on full display.   -because we are on the cusp of an AI, robots, humanoids revolution; a world packed with machines, computers   -it lends itself well to a deep appreciation for free will.  i regard it as one the greatest gifts bestowed by God.  ive already written extensively on the topic,  -so will move on; but, free will involves both good and evil; flesh and spirit; lies and truth; free will involves conscious awareness of thoughts; involves choices, leaves room for humans to learn via life experiences; making decisions; making mistakes, allows for humans to grow and evolve over years.. decades; acquire wisdom, not just knowledge.  we are exactly not pre-programmed machines.  God did not create robots, in a self-serving way, made exclusively to serve and obey on demand.    -the thing that is worth repeating..    and that the current AI/robots/humanoids revolution helps magnify:

human beings are the very definition of a masterpiece  (remember one of the qualifications of a masterpiece..   LOVE.. is involved).

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CORRUPTION/SCANDAL in the church:  it has been well publicized; pedophiles and cover-ups by the church.  a brave young man in this documentary speaks out..    [free will/being a human masterpiece includes opportunities for cowardice; bravery.. ].  i would share,  -and as a survivor  -no church involved-  of a home invasion, kidnapping, sexual violation at age 6..

this particular evil is hardly exclusive to the Catholic Church;  it is, by its very nature,  -wherever young children gather, and where opportunities for deception, abuse present themselves. and where 'taboo'  fear of scandal, high stakes for speaking out are exploited and used to the predators advantage.  heart-breaking that so many background checks are necessary, but they are necessary, for teachers, clergy, coaches, scout leaders..  long list.   -and i believe and pray in Jesus name, that.. as an entire population, we will continue to do what we can do to protect children from this wicked, evil abuse; that is, prevent it to the very best of our ability   -and anywhere the evil is perpetrated; there is a severe 'caught and consequences' protocol in place.  i believe these wicked, evil abusers need to be permanently removed from society in the form of jails,  -islands which remove them entirely, isolate them      -where this wickedness and evil also includes violence and murder; the death penalty.

i am hopeful to see that, once non-existent, background checks have become mandatory.

i am hopeful, because, once too taboo to even whisper..  victims have been empowered to speak out.  -that by itself is a huge victory!  these wicked, evil predators are empowered by victims silence..

i have no actual records, no graphs which share with me, a truth, about how prevalent this was, vs. how prevalent it is..   but, i am hopeful that with just those two things:  background checks, empowering  victims to speak out and report..   this has to result in a significant reduction and deterrent.

most people who work with children, work with children because they genuinely care about, love, want to teach, coach, mentor; edify, build-up;  most people who work with children are good, trustworthy, noble, with a gift for reaching young hearts and minds, relating, understanding..  helping them to develop, learn, grow,  -discover their own potential and bring out their best.  most people who work with infants, toddlers, children, have patience, love.. are kind, gentle,  every fruit of the spirit and are good role models.  Many are volunteers..   Many are paid professionals.. 

"Thank You!"  

    *if you are not part of the problem; you are by default.. already a part of the solution.

    * the wickedness of pedophiles falls under the 'sexual abuse' category; i will write eventually on just how much 'sex' is anything and everything but sacred in a secular world.  

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speaking of sex:  also in this documentary, there is a beautiful young woman, single young mother of a daughter, if i remember correctly, who shares she is currently making a living via online pornography and this 'career choice' is allowing her to stay home and be with her daughter, it is a profitable business, and better than having to commute to a job; be away from her child and place child in day care, etc.

   -again, free will, free speech on full display

my life experience/wisdom (age 59) leads me to believe two things:

1).  prostitution/pornography have always, and will always exist in the secular world; a world in which we all share; we share this planet:  secular, other faiths, Christians, agnostics, atheist's  -good people, evil people..     we share the planet: people who regard sex as recreational; profitable; commercial vs. sacred

i matured and evolved toward regarding sex as highly sacred.  the most intimate exchange between two people in love; the highest form of physical pleasure

and it is exactly those things (intimacy; privacy; pleasure) that make it so vulnerable to corruption, to exploitation, to addiction, to blackmail,  on and on..

but as i matured, evolved, deepened my Christian walk, relationship to Jesus, the Holy Spirit..  at what age specifically i dont recall, but i began to use (include) pornography as a process of quick elimination for anyone i would continue dating.    that is, if the man i was dating showed any inclination toward pornography   -i ended that relationship.

i am married to a remarkable man now.  we both regard sex as sacred.  it is a wonderful, mutually satisfying, mutually loving, positive experience.

i believe,  i have come to believe, that for this young, single, mom of a daughter, in this documentary  -and for any other person   

in the secular world, this profession will always exist..    as will a spirit of lust.

but 2.) for Christians   -if you are in fact, in word, and in deed, in the practice of walking with God; if you love Jesus and cultivate a relationship with the Holy Spirit

not overnight..   but over time, 

the 'fruit' of that Christian walk will eventually and ultimately result in sex becoming sacred again.

    [smiling to think of a song write now..    robbie williams, 'make me pure.' [but not yet...]

anyway,  a natural result of the Christian walk, of the consecration, sanctification process, is that lust will subside and be replaced with love. 

   -being 'in the world' but not of it.

   -casting down thoughts not in line with...

   - Galatians 5:16:  walk in the spirit and you will not fulfill the lust of the flesh. 

and John 3:17 comes to heart and mind:  God did not send his Son into the world to condemn; but to save 

When you have cultivated a relationship with Jesus..  the Holy Spirit.. you will not so much experience 'condemnation' but  you will experience 'conviction'   -and motivated by love and respect, not fear..

sex will become sacred again.

   -glory to glory to glory..   the path of the righteous grows brighter and brighter..

i'm very inspired to write soon about 'righteousness'   -how deeply it matters..  how it manifests...

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IMMIGRANTS  -this is crazy prevalent in the news write now with the Trump Administration doing mass deportations..    but a young woman in this documentary speaks about being an immigrant.. speaks about experiencing 'racism' & 'bullying'  & 'self loathing'  'depression' and 'negative body image'

    -just like, the wicked/evil predatory behavior of pedophiles is not exclusive to the church..

'racism, bullying, self loathing, 'depression'  anxiety.. bad body image, anorexia, bulemia.. on and on..

NONE OF IT is exclusive to immigrants; to any given race..

i've heard multiple times  -over many decades, how immigrants (legal or illegal) see their status as an immigrant as the 'reason for...'

i promise you! as a native American, white girl,  -born in the 'free' USA..  SUNNY golden state of California..        i have experienced:  racism, bullying, kidnaps, rapes, bad body image, self loathing, PTSD, violence..   poverty..   a long list.     and i represent, unfortunately, a very large population..

i confess to being confused by it all..    like, maybe i should have been trying to flee my country!  certainly.. people born here, do have to flee certain neighborhoods..   dysfunctional, abusive, toxic environments/families/spouses/work places..  

people risk their lives to get here..  USA..   but i promise you!  there are too many people born and raised write here, in the USA,  risking their lives to get from one dangerous place here.. to a safer place here..

none of the things this young girl mentioned are unique to her; or are unique to being an immigrant.  

the thing any young person should look for, any young people battling the common battles..  should look for..         survivors; those who have conquered..     there is also a large population of people who survived and found a better way..

seek them out and learn from them.    -lots of choices, but Joyce Meyer has been one of my role models; good results! 

turns out Jesus, Christianity, the Bible, ...  a common denominator for many, many, countless victors.

this young, beautiful girl also mentioned 'suicidal thoughts'   -again, hardly unique to immigrants..

i've also already written extensively on that topic:  including 'the greatest thing i never did.'

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heart breaking how much pain, violence, suffering there is in the world, isnt it.

   -be the salt, and the light!     

 *if you are not part of the problem; you're already part of the solution. 

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a dense, thought provoking documentary,  -what else..  

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ABORTION:  of course.. another tough topic..  for everyone.. but heightened in the Catholic church;  and justified upset over how they publicly condemn/ostracize pro-choice, while secretly covering up and protecting pedophiles. 

 -free speech/free will on full display..   

a life and death decision AI/humanoids will never have to make..     i am on the same page with the 'pro-choice' young woman who spoke..  agree with everything she had to say..   i would 'march in her parade' so to speak.  as my sister once pointed out: wouldn't it be wonderful if females did not even have periods/menstruation, could not even conceive a child until after age 18...

but that is not how God created us..    i've already written extensively on this topic also, so will move on..

except to remind:  i was a 15 year old pregnant teen.  i was 'suicidal' because i could not, at that tender, young age.. hormones.. traumas..    i could not see a way 'out'     -that is, i could not myself get an abortion, i just couldnt do it..     but, i could not have the baby..    i just couldn't do it..

my immature heart/mind, backed in a corner, under so much intense stress thought like this:

i cannot get an abortion.   i cannot have the baby.   i will take my own life and end this pain. 

i still regard it as divine intervention that i had a miscarriage; mercy from God.  i was no longer torn between two impossibles. 

but divine intervention is its own unknowable, mysterious, inexplainable, unprovable by humans topic.. isnt it.

the places we can 'credit' God..   interpret 'divine intervention'   -where the result is ultimately positive..

vs. the places, God   -we interpret, that God chose not to intervene..    that God could but, instead allows...       violence, murder, domestic abuse, elderly abuse, corruption, drugs, human trafficking..  bullying.. blackmailing..     long, long list..        -free will; evidence thereof.. 

it is my interpretation:  my miscarriage was divine intervention;   then..  i must also say, God allowed me to be kidnapped and raped..

allowed my sister-in-law to be violently murdered by her own son.

it is unknowable to me..  to humans, i believe,  -any actual understanding of when God will or will not intervene

but, i have peace..   peace beyond human understanding..   the peace itself, i interpret as being a gift from God..    i equate free will, free choice, suffering, transcending suffering..

salvation; eternal life..      love conquering all.    i have over time, accepted not knowing, not understanding, and realizing no human has the answer   -not even our most highly regarded spiritual leaders.

 *if you are not part of the problem; you are by default.. already a part of the solution.

be the salt and the light!   in the world, not of it..     glory to glory to glory..  the path of the righteous does grow brighter and brighter..    do not grow weary of doing good..

'lean not on your own understanding..    trust God'

the result of my prayer life, Christian walk, cultivating a relationship w/Jesus; guidance of the Holy Sprit; all of it results in me trusting God and continuing on this path..   even with the unknowables. 

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what else..     oh yes..  a young beautiful person who is 'trans'   ?      all of this, for me personally, falls in the same category as i placed 'pornography' in earlier paragraphs..

it will exist in the secular world, and

not overnight, but over time..   any person who chooses to walk with God, who chooses the Christian faith, and sincerely commits to this path..

a natural (not hard, harsh, condemning, fear based), but a natural byproduct, a natural result of the Christian walk, inspired not imposed:   sex will become sacred again

not recreational, not exploitive, not manipulative, not rebellious, not financially profitable, not self seeking, not carnal, not abusive, not under the influence of hollywood, pop culture; not under the influence of alcohol or drugs or debts or dares; not with intent to harm or blackmail emotionally, psychologically; not of the 'flesh'    

a natural result of the Christian walk..  cultivating a relationship with Jesus.. the Holy Spirit.. 

making love will be of the spirit, will involve love, will be beautiful, intimate, mutually gratifying and bonding..   will enhance a loving relationship; will result from fidelity, trustworthiness, mutual respect...    

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i want to acknowledge that young people today do, in fact, have an even greater obstacle coarse; even more distractions, influences, opportunities

pornography, when i was coming up:  you had to go out of your way to see it.   nowadays, you have to go out of your way to avoid it.    -the same can be said for drugs, alcohol..

but the results are in.  -take a look at whether the world, societies, communities, families, individuals are thriving and doing better or hurting and doing worse;     the report card

and, we are  -just now-  starting to see a desire from [societies, communities, families, individuals];

a desire to return to a more 'spirit' less 'flesh' way of being. 

the population at large seems to be saying..    enough with the carnal..

i am witnessing a 'free will' return to healthy values; incremental..  but experiential.

where this involves Christians, we do say, return to "Christian" values..  but, even non Christians, even seculars seem to be desiring a return to more 'conservative' values; more traditional, fundamental..  'family friendly'

  -and it also used to be..  that you had to go to a brick n mortar church..

but you can find Christians, TV Ministers, spiritual leaders, Bible Study, scriptures, discussions..

24/7, online, 365 days a year.   You still need discernment..

but,   -even without one Bible Study class..   for any given young person..

if you lend yourself to the belief   God is real.  God is love.

and, just in your own imagination   -ask yourself for any given behavior, decision

   -does 'doing this'  glorify God's name..  yes or no?     does 'thinking this' glorify God's name?

  does   -watching this..   wearing this...    seeing this..   sharing this..   spending time here..

the 'purpose'

the 'goal'

for any Christian..  not overnight, but over time:   glorify God's name.    not the devils.  A natural result of the Christian walk is that you will -choose- to glorify God's name, with love & gratitude.   -you will find Jesus really is the way, the truth, the life.      -the chain-breaker, the pain-taker, the way maker. 

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John 10:10   The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy.  I came that they may have and ENJOY LIFE, and have it in abundance (to the full, til it overflows). 

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I AM A WITNESS...      selah! hallelujah! & amen! 

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About my Lord & Savior..    he does not break in; will not break in  -he waits for an invitation..

the Holy Spirit, once invited and welcomed in..       slowly, patiently, lovingly, mercifully, gracefully, carefully, beautifully, gently..

rescues, redeems, restores; it is collaborative.

a path to healing and wholeness.       the valentine from Jesus 

     if i crack open your heart, what will i find?  you saying i'm yours? cuz i'm praying your mine.

i love to think about the un-x-ray-able heart..    open; closed; broken; healed; pure; toxic; small; big; gold; asleep; ice; hidden; stolen; walled off; accessible; melting; bleeding; stone; infatuated; overflowing; soft; tender; hard; good; clean...